9:59 PM
though i tend to avoid the stickysweetness and melodrama that is dateline, i am watching it tonight. though sophie is perfect in every way, and has been incredibly healthy since her rocky start, i still have "thank god she wasn't [x]" thoughts on a daily basis.
[i should just get over it and acknowledge how blessed i am.]
tonight's show is focused on a set of conjoined twins born here in washington, who were separated last year. every time they show those little girls, i start crying, even though i know they are now safe and happy and growing as individuals and not as one. i think of all those conjoined twins who aren't separated and those who died young and i just start freaking out. i know it didn't happen to me and as sophie will most likely remain an only child, the chances of it ever being an issue in my world are slim. but still, my heart races, my breath starts to hitch in my chest, and the tears start to flow.
