becoming a person [one fragment at a time]


10.31.2001

trick or treating under a blue moon

10.03.2001

september 27, 2 pm

lord, when i asked for a distraction from the events of september 11th
this wasn't exactly what i had in mind.


forty eight hours ago
i had never heard of pneumococcal sepsis
was blissfully ignorant of things like blood
acidosis and pressures of 50 over 14

forty eight hours ago
i was teasing you because you were finally
cold in the over refrigerated offices, finally
had to pull on a mexican sweater, cream with
crimson designs woven in, finally had to
admit that we were right, it was bloody freezing

[which shouldn't have come as a surprise since
you know and once told my exhusband
i'm always right]

my father was on the 106th floor.

i overhear her on the bus and when
she gets off two stops later i follow

at the florist: my fiance was a firefighter
responding to the first call
at the fishmonger: my twin sister was
on the pentagon flight

the patisserie hears about her husband
the vegetable stand her mother

she moves through the city gathering
sympathy to [carry home with her]
to wrap tightly around another night
sitting alone with her dinner in front
of the television news.

she scoffs at the cigarette metaphor, saying it was nothing like a fastburning cigarette, buildings collapse on themselves, don't burnup. but i know she is wrong.

in the long run, it is the smell that finally makes it real


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